I'm Lost

I am finished with teachers and their teachings. I want to know myself, and understand who I am without the helf of anyone. I feel as thought I see the world, so magical and real, for the first time. Suddenly I feel a power of self - realization. I feel like a grown man. A confident man. This feeling of being free gives me a much larger desire to learn who I am, and what my place in this world is, on my own, not from someone else's experience or teachings. I want to learn and find my own path to Nirvana. I know that it will come from inside, from within myself. I was thinking about going back to my father, but I realized that going back to my father would mean going back to my past life and that is not what I want. Suddenly, I felt so lonely, alone in this huge world without anywhere to go.